This past year I worked really hard on changing my mindset. I knew my negative self-talk and negative thoughts were hurting me. But I had no idea just how life-draining allowing myself to engage in negative thoughts had become. It was super simple for my thoughts to quickly enter into a downward spiral. When I …
It took a few months to get all of the evidence together to turn over to my lawyer. It seemed like a never ending task to compile everything because new emails from Keller were sent to my inbox almost daily. However, it was only a matter of time before the escalation the lawyer said would …
I wasn’t sure if I wanted to pursue a restraining order against Keller. That felt so harsh and so final. What if he got help? What if he changed? What if I wanted him to be in our lives at some point in the future? If I pursued a restraining order, I knew there would …
The pastor at church last week said something that really stuck out to me. He said, “Everyone wants to experience a miracle, but nobody wants to need one.” I’ve been in a place where I was in need of a miracle. It was a terrifying position to be in. I was sitting in a Planned …
After I told Keller I was keeping our baby, we got into a huge fight on the phone. During that conversation, Keller told me he was committing suicide. I felt trapped. He was screaming at me so I didn’t want to continue the conversation, but how could I hang up the phone knowing he was …
Fear – that was the emotion I was feeling on November 1, 2018 when I walked into Planned Parenthood. In fact, I had been living in fear in the form of: incredible anxiety, nausea, lack of appetite, and restlessness (not being able to sleep, not being able to concentrate on work, not being able to …
The 2 year anniversary of me finding out I was pregnant is this week. My whole world changed on October 30, 2018. I was terrified to tell my family I was pregnant. I almost allowed that fear to convince me to abort my child. Instead, I had my baby and I am so glad I …
When people started to find out I was pregnant, I was astonished at the response. I had convinced myself that people would judge me. However, I got the exact opposite response. People went above and beyond to make me and my unborn baby feel loved and supported. My sister put out a message on Facebook …
It was the appointment every pregnant woman looks forward to – the 20 week anatomy scan. This is the big ultrasound appointment where you can find out the gender of your baby and you get a whole bunch of adorable pictures of the baby as the doctor takes measurements. I remember being so excited to …
Once I decided it was time for me to go back to California, I had 1 week to get everything done. To say I was overwhelmed was an understatement. I had to transition projects for work, pack up my stuff, and figure out what I needed to bring for a newborn. My plan was to …