I wasn’t sure if I wanted to pursue a restraining order against Keller. That felt so harsh and so final. What if he got help? What if he changed? What if I wanted him to be in our lives at some point in the future? If I pursued a restraining order, I knew there would …
The pastor at church last week said something that really stuck out to me. He said, “Everyone wants to experience a miracle, but nobody wants to need one.” I’ve been in a place where I was in need of a miracle. It was a terrifying position to be in. I was sitting in a Planned …
Sometimes I catch myself dwelling on my disappointments. I focus on the fact that I’m still looking for a job, that I’m still single at 32, and that, at this point, my life doesn’t look like I imagined it would. It’s so easy for my negative thoughts to completely take over and leave me feeling …
Keller and I met on a dating app. We talked on the phone for 6 months before meeting in person (oh the joys of modern “dating”). During those few months, Keller and I got to know each other. He told me about his family life – or lack thereof according to him. He told me …
After I told Keller I was keeping our baby, we got into a huge fight on the phone. During that conversation, Keller told me he was committing suicide. I felt trapped. He was screaming at me so I didn’t want to continue the conversation, but how could I hang up the phone knowing he was …
Fear – that was the emotion I was feeling on November 1, 2018 when I walked into Planned Parenthood. In fact, I had been living in fear in the form of: incredible anxiety, nausea, lack of appetite, and restlessness (not being able to sleep, not being able to concentrate on work, not being able to …
When people started to find out I was pregnant, I was astonished at the response. I had convinced myself that people would judge me. However, I got the exact opposite response. People went above and beyond to make me and my unborn baby feel loved and supported. My sister put out a message on Facebook …
It was the appointment every pregnant woman looks forward to – the 20 week anatomy scan. This is the big ultrasound appointment where you can find out the gender of your baby and you get a whole bunch of adorable pictures of the baby as the doctor takes measurements. I remember being so excited to …
I came home to California because I was a mess. I needed help mentally and emotionally. I was so beaten down, my own family didn’t recognize me. My Dad described it as though I had been completely taken over by another person. I knew I needed help. I reached out to a friend to see …