I thought something was wrong with me. I wasn’t crying. The tears wouldn’t come even when I willed them to. Everyone around me was crying, but I could not cry. My tears flowed so heavily those first couple of days. Then they just stopped. When I imagined how I would react if something terrible happened, …
The day after Gideon died, I sat in a chair in the living room the entire day. There was a box of tissues on the table next to me and I think I used the entire box in one day. I didn’t eat because I wasn’t hungry and I honestly wasn’t sure if I would …
On May 23, 2022 at 4:55 pm, Gideon was happily walking with me to the mailbox. We needed to mail some letters and then we were going to walk to the train – his “favorite place in the world.” He was pushing one of his favorite toy trucks. In the blink of an eye, he …
Repudiate (verb) to reject with denial. I saw a viral video posted by Becky Martin last week of a her sharing her story. She found out she was pregnant in high school and was faced with a big decision. The video closed caption asks if she wanted to have an abortion – the Becky points …
I usually look forward to the start of a new year. I take time to reflect on the past year and set new goals for the new year. But this year, I just felt blah. I experienced a major setback a few years ago. I left a city I loved and had to move back …
Shame was a label I thought I would have to wear forever. I felt so much shame for such a long time. Shame over getting pregnant. Shame about the life I was living. Shame that things didn’t work with Keller. Shame about being a single mom. Shame for becoming a statistic as an unemployed single …
Recently someone described me as “peaceful.” I was so surprised by that description. I wouldn’t normally call myself a peaceful person so it got me thinking – what was it about me that was coming across as peaceful? The past couple years have been chaotic and full of unknown. Moving, different opportunities, and court to …
Resoluteness – Firm or unwavering adherence to one’s purpose. To the woman facing a crisis pregnancy, I see you. I know how fast your heart is beating at this moment. I know you can hear your heartbeat ringing in your ears and it’s deafening. I know how much your body is trembling as you hold …
Sometimes it’s hard to be a working mom. I feel like I miss out on a lot at times. Today for example, I worked late and heavy traffic made for a longer commute home. All of that to say, I try to make my time with Gideon count when I get home and before he …
Guest writer alert! Today’s blog is written by my Dad. He’s sharing a powerful story of my birth and Gideon’s birth from his perspective. Two Births My wife and I were getting ready to have our first child — a baby girl. As her labor lengthened, excitement turned to concern, which turned into an unforeseen, …